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I have also found that at the end of the day it doesn't matter where you are, what you're doing, or who you're with--it's all just life. Oh there are wonderful moments and where you are, what you're going or who you're with can impact things a great deal, but everything is part of life. People can go on for hours about how lucky I am to be living with my parents in Hawaii this summer. I agree with them. But, for some reason, it doesn't seem as far fetched as they make it out to be. Maybe it's how I've been raised, or maybe the fact that I've had some pretty "impossible" things happen to me; but in my mind, things that happen aren't so much surrealistic as just new and different.
But these new and different things loose savor for me fairly quickly. I get bored with things sooner than I would like. I don't want to continue doing what I'm bored with, but I wish that I didn't get bored with things so quickly. The feeling is kind of like saying, "well, that was fun, might do it again; what's next?" I seem to lack satisfaction in where I am intellectually. I constantly want to be doing new things. Everything I do, or have done, is wonderful and I continue to have interest in it, but I also find that I almost always want to be learning something else. Something new. But this added indecision and constant change of interest is not helping my desire for stability.
My life just changes so quickly. The years really do fly by...
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"I try to take one day at a time, but lately, several days have attacked me at once."
"The only thing constant in life is change."
"Change is good."-"Yeah but it's not easy."
"I never said it would be easy; I only said it would be worth it."
"The past can hurt. But the way I see it, you can either run from it, or learn from it."
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Today's Featured Quote:
"Some things just don't matter."
You have never liked change until the transition is over and the new thing has set in. Perhaps that is the legacy of your childhood: the ability to accept the change after the transition. You life will be in flux for a while yet. It is good that you recognize how to deal with it and understand yourself better. One day I hope you find something or someone which does not lose its savor. Important stuff is like that; really important stuff. And sometimes, when you're not around something too often, at the point of rediscovery, the savor returns. I love your quotes.
ReplyDeleteYour mom is right--the important stuff doesn't lose its savor.
ReplyDeleteAnd don't lose hope with school. I've decided to stay in the department to show them all that a writer can be clean and successful and have morals. And Ben said if our grades reflect that, then he'll personally see to it that we're "taken care of." Kind of frightening, really. ;)